Another Missed Wednesday

i miss an awful lot of wednesdays. working a whole bunch seems to do that, though.

needless to say, i haven't really been in the kitchen much lately. other than making myself lunch, i haven't had any time to put anything together.

i've been thinking of what i could make next. i have a lot of ideas. i think i may be settling for some kind of cupcakes, though. for some reason, i feel like i need some cupcakes in my life. or more fudge, but i'm using the peanut butter and fluff for my sandwiches.

we weren't able to get any wine racks done last week. ron got really sick, so we didn't do very much sunday or monday. i worked all day sunday, and monday we ended up going out to carousel to walk and go to the melting pot since we had a couple of certificates to use. at some point we went to see the new avengers movie, maybe that was saturday? i can't really remember. that was the rest of the weekend off.

i kind of wish i had a better picture, but we got all dressed up again, and i wore my shawl that i arm knitted a couple months ago, finally. i actually was complemented on it by one of the kiosk people in the mall, and she wanted to touch it. it was pretty cool, i was excited someone noticed.

we got running/walking shoes while we were out, too. i am pretty sure it's my first pair of running shoes ever, since physical activities and i don't get along well. i am going to make an attempt, though. insane inflatable 5k, i will be ready for you in september. color run, you too, whenever we plan on going. it seems like leigh valley in allentown, pennsylvania might be the winner though. it's in october. i just want to be covered in glitter and paint. yep yep yep.

august is high on the priority list, though. outer banks is on it's way, and i can't wait to get away from here for a bit. whatever weekend we go camping will be nice, too. i am so super sick of everything around me. i feel sad a lot, and sometimes it seems like no matter what i do to distract myself, it will not let up. everything is always reminding me of something, triggering feelings and whatnot. it's worse when i have a few good days, am actually happy, and there's always something to ruin everything, you know, like dreams and stuff. i don't want to hurt anymore, and need a serious change of scenery, hardcore.

i've been reading a lot. i have a few books on my phone that i read at home and at work. sometimes it helps, although the last day or so, i feel like i can't concentrate on words. driving has been a little scary, but i try to remind myself that things are okay. meh.

so, cupcakes! i am trying to decide on either chocolate cupcakes with nutella frosting, or some more jello cupcakes, just because. something fruity sounds awesome, but at the same time.....nutella.....

well, i have tuesday off it seems. i don't know how it happened, either, especially with it being a new release day. i don't make the schedule. i'll see what comes out of the oven while i'm sitting at home all day. well, thanks for listening/reading. have a good week!

lol snapchat. derp.